01 Mar 2004

Almost a Batterer

Right this moment, my Lord, I am utterly ashamed of myself, for I almost battered my own children. Now that I am calmer, I can't imagine that it was I who punished them so severely for such minor mistakes. How could I have done it? Yet it is true. I, who know so much about the importance of nurturing their tender natures, took out my unreasonable anger and frustrations on them. You said that when those who teach others sin, they bear a greater guilt. Is there no way out? I feel so trapped in my recurring spurts of irrational rage...and I fear for my children and for myself.

For Meditation and Prayer:
James 1:4
Galatians 5:22-23