01 Jul 2001

Torn Between God and Husband

I thought I was well prepared; I thought I knew how to love God with all my heart, with all my soul, with all my mind and with all my strength. But the day I had to share a room with my husband, Chin, I could not freely talk to God! I tried to share this unexpected difficulty as a new discovery with Chin. But it made matters worse as he misunderstood my need to be alone, undisturbed with my Lord, any time of the day in my room... ours then...and expressed disappointment that I did not love him enough to share a room with him.

I wish I had some space in the house all to myself...to listen to Him, to pray and to read His word. But we can't afford such a 'luxury'... which, to me has always been a necessity. Lord, help me, I pray.

"It is not just enough physical space to be alone with Me that you need, My child; it is learning to hear Me in the midst of Life changes... and, sometimes, waiting till your husband knows Me as his friend too.

Meanwhile, do not sulk or feel frustrated... simply talk with Me whenever you are alone in the kitchen or bathroom or while waiting for a bus... I am with you and I hear ..."

For Meditation and Prayer:
Matthew 8:20